certain things like the depth
of emotions dont perturb anymore
certain things like bringing
your body home in one piece
and on earth
is all I long to hear
certain things like watching
the rain and contemplating
the effect we
have on other people
is only growing up
they come and go all the time
they come and tell us things
like you have pretty eyes
and do things
like draw on our cheeks
and kiss on pavements
and listening to our shitty days
when they had worse
they come and bury feelings in us
we thought never existed
they do this and leave
over the days spent
over the years
over the countless conversations we had
it is months'
worth of writing
and crying
and waking up to realize that
all though everyone
is around,
you are still alone
ever since he
left, he
took not just his
clothes and gel and
keys and rough hand-packed
emotions
but your centre
too. when he called
the cab, it was
too late. when he boarded the
plane, it was
too late.
when he arrived home
it was too late
so you scrambled
eyelessly around,
looking for your centre
with your hands
and we kept hushing
you to sleep
because you wouldn't
if we didn't
it was painful,
everything was
colourless, everything
was muted,
everything was tasteless
and had no
se
You grew over shrubs
and hedges
eating quasars like
cereal bowls.
Something remains
porcelain under sadness
and requited joy.
other things
remain so
much more.
One.
today you found
love
at the back of your
palm,
growing inwards into
your veins
and into your
heart.
you opened your
fangs and
said some things
are just
meant to be.
Remember him like
a midnight rain.
Remember him
like the ocean or
tears or the years
youve passed
in school hallways.
he is your solace
and you know it.
Two.
Your coffee friend
calls you
at 5 a.m. to
tell you of maple
pecan crunch.
of cohen and summers
separa
This is a whole room of people
Moving bodies, useless chatter
Lights, sounds, tastes
But I am alone.
There is someone for everyone
I am the outcast,
Always has been.
Sometimes we wish that there is something more to a book
Or a song, a movie
But that is all there is to it,
Only a book
A song, a movie.
If I look really closely,
I can see tiny dots everywhere.
They make up my mind
And everything else, for that matter.
Cause even the sweetest turns bitter by time
We can reveal so much through words
But the pain inside,
We cant see
We cannot feel.
They say hurt is part of mankind
But I dont feel any emotions and
it is months'
worth of writing
and crying
and waking up to realize that
all though everyone
is around,
you are still alone
ever since he
left, he
took not just his
clothes and gel and
keys and rough hand-packed
emotions
but your centre
too. when he called
the cab, it was
too late. when he boarded the
plane, it was
too late.
when he arrived home
it was too late
so you scrambled
eyelessly around,
looking for your centre
with your hands
and we kept hushing
you to sleep
because you wouldn't
if we didn't
it was painful,
everything was
colourless, everything
was muted,
everything was tasteless
and had no
se
You grew over shrubs
and hedges
eating quasars like
cereal bowls.
Something remains
porcelain under sadness
and requited joy.
other things
remain so
much more.
One.
today you found
love
at the back of your
palm,
growing inwards into
your veins
and into your
heart.
you opened your
fangs and
said some things
are just
meant to be.
Remember him like
a midnight rain.
Remember him
like the ocean or
tears or the years
youve passed
in school hallways.
he is your solace
and you know it.
Two.
Your coffee friend
calls you
at 5 a.m. to
tell you of maple
pecan crunch.
of cohen and summers
separa
This is a whole room of people
Moving bodies, useless chatter
Lights, sounds, tastes
But I am alone.
There is someone for everyone
I am the outcast,
Always has been.
Sometimes we wish that there is something more to a book
Or a song, a movie
But that is all there is to it,
Only a book
A song, a movie.
If I look really closely,
I can see tiny dots everywhere.
They make up my mind
And everything else, for that matter.
Cause even the sweetest turns bitter by time
We can reveal so much through words
But the pain inside,
We cant see
We cannot feel.
They say hurt is part of mankind
But I dont feel any emotions and
everyone is a sociopath with a vitamin deficiency by poetic, literature
Literature
everyone is a sociopath with a vitamin deficiency
my parents never beat me
and look how I turned out: cracked ribs
fractured pelvis
blood in my urine
finally lost my baby teeth
but there's no love without blood and you
do not dream in hourglasses
rusty wind and
ferris wheel cages
to watch the gauze fall untaped
on the kitchen floor and
I am itchingscratchingbleeding time
profusely and it falls off me like sawdust with every
turnaround or
shakemyheadno but
I still stand still with knees dovetailed and
head cocked down
to watch the wood shavings
pile at my shins like suitcases
you always want more
so when I felt the fault lines in your wrists
start to tremble
I took that
once i asked you your favourite
colour, and you said, "the brown
of your eyes," so i put in one green
contact and told everyone that i
came out of the womb as a factory
defect, half-priced, damaged goods.
-
sometimes i am from canada and
sometimes i am from england and
sometimes i am from spain.
i've carefully tempered my accents
and plotted out my stories with
yellow and purple coloured pencils
on index cards. my origin changes
like the seasons.
"why do you lie to everyone?" you
ask.
"why not?" i reply.
-
i wear nametags that read "alicia"
and "liana" and "samantha," because
i want to know how it feels to be
someon
sat eating chocolates 3 in the morning during the weekend. was hoping dad would catch me in the hallway. of course, he never did.
Faith is a friend, you make it or break it. Seven collar t-shirt - Faith
that heart of pixels has infinitely touched others on levels you can not imagine. the pain and emotions you write about are hard to be understood as they are, let alone be put into words. so, all that you have right there, is a godsend.